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I’m Back!!!! (Probably)

Oh wow I’m back guys!!! Remember me??? Your favorite fake blogger on earth??!

No??

………..Ok………..

But anyways *gets rid of spiderwebs* I’m back guys!!! Maybe…no promises though ’cause I always say that I’m back and disappear again for another 2 months bahahaaaa. Your girl is just busy kay.

I mean it though I was really busy as I had my last semester for my HND course. Time flies right??? It felt like it was just last month that I broke the news to you guys that I got to pursue this course, and soon after my internship is done it’s gonna be over. What. Is. Happening. To. The. Time???? But yeah I had to admit that last semester was the most challenging semester yet I legit cried a river, guys. Okay maybe not a river but I broke down A LOT. I’ve never felt so fragile and dumb before. I even had phases where I questioned my decision in pursuing law too, but hey nothing’s ever easy anyway so might as well just go for it.

I also found out that I’m really bad at memorizing Qur’an. I’m probably the slowest one amongst my classmates when it comes to this module. I had to memorize 4 surahs (each surah was around 20-30 verses long guysss *cries blood*) during the final week whereas most of my friends were already on their last surah. I was really stressed out I decided to go to this individual study room just to bawl my eyeballs out. No kidding guys. Good thing about last minute memorization is that I still remember most of the surahs so I’d say my oral exam was a bit okay hehe. Other than memorization, I was also stressed out over my kertas projek. I know exactly the fact that we were given a year to complete it but who am I kidding, nothing’s gonna start to work until the deadline’s approaching bahahahahaaa. So yeah I know it’s partially my fault but I’m almost done with it anyway so can’t wait to submit it soon :>

Okay enough about my school work sorry to make you guys all sleepy I promise I’ll be more interesting on the next post okay (hopefully it won’t take me 2 months to write it tho hehe). I promised you guys to blog about my Singapore trip and second EXO concert so either one will be the topic of my next post okie ;> Other than that…I’m outtie again for now.

Oh Salam Ramadhan to you guys too!!! May we all have a blessed and calming Ramadhan this year, let’s kumpul as much pahala as we can aight? <3

Just A Lil Update

I cannot belieeeeve in myself. How can I let February passed by without any new post???? Gosh.

SO A LOOTT of things actually happened these past few months…well mostly about uni and big part of it is related to my private life so I can’t really talk about it much…but hey, I went to Singapore with Teet guys!!! I will definitely make a separate post for this as I want to remember it forever hehe. And yes, we went to see EXO for the second time too HEHE. Now I just need to search for a free time to lash it out here, honestly uni won’t just let your girl breathe even for a mere second guys. Sheesh.

Anyway, I really hope that you guys are doing really well too (and you know, not forgetting me here…hello friends…haha…) and I hope that Allah swt is also blessing you guys all as much as or if not, even more than me. All I can tell you guys for now is that, I am happy with myself. I honestly think that I am a little more mentally healthier now, I’m able to embrace myself and love myself even more (though, I’m still not contented with my body’s appearance so I still need to work out…), I’ve stopped comparing myself with others, ignored those who are toxic to me and just focus on my own happiness, strength, authenticity and people who truly love me as a whole. Uni life has also been a ridiculous roller coaster ride but I kept on reminding myself that this is my choice and this is my passion. Love for law and everything about it keeps me going despite the endless ramblings and complains that I threw on my social medias here and there hehe.

I know I know I kept on saying this on my posts before that I’ll be back, I’m trying my best to make time for you guys here okay? I miss being here too tbh huhu.

Me awkwardly passing by despite knowing that I am in a lot of debt with you all. Heeheee <3 #lovemestillplease

A Whole New World

Remember when I said that I don’t really hope that much for 2018 and was just hoping that this year would at least be a little nicer to me? Well that’s the beauty of not hoping guys hahaha..is it too early to say that my 2018 has been amazing so far?? :>

It felt like getting hit by a train and waking up in a whole new different world, but I’m not complaining because I am mesmerized by its beauty. But I’m still skeptical to totally give in and still trying to not let my hope fly too high…I’m scared that, what if this is actually a dream? What if I did actually gotten myself hit by a train and is actually in a coma state right now? OK Nauzubillah though thank God Brunei doesn’t have any train HAHA.

Ahh I wish I can tell you guys more, the least I can tell you guys for now is that I am really happy. I am happy despite my really hectic and packed schedule, despite the assignments starting to piling up to the ceiling, despite having Friday and night classes. I’m happy that I can totally shut people that annoyed me though they are just meters away from me haha. I’m happy that I can just scroll away from keyboard warriors’ tweets on twitter and just focus on my exo babies and things that actually matters. Oh I’m also happy because I’m going to meet EXO again insyaAllah. Yes you read that right guys, our “next exo concert meeting” at Baskin Robins will turn into a reality soon HAHAHA.

Sigh life can be mysterious sometimes and it can get really scary just by thinking about the future. But someone told me that life will always change and that we won’t be getting the same moment as it is right now…so cherish it while you still can hehe. I’m gonna carry this advice in my heart everywhere and always ;>

But the main reason behind my ultimate happiness is actually from these beautiful people in my life, who’ve been with me through thick and thin and who just arrived yet genuinely accepted me for who I am. I’m trying my best to squeeze in some time for all of them despite my crazy schedule and honestly, they are the reasons why life is bearable to me. How did I get so lucky?

I know it’s still early for me to say, but I hope your 2018 has been and will be as amazing, or even better than mine. Happiness is temporary and so does sadness okay #balance #justlifething haha.

Swear not thinking about fried chicken this time hahaha.

Alright back to reading cases :’D Be back soon!

Archive 2017

Tomorrow is the last day of 2017 as I’m writing this and I honestly can’t wait for this year to be over. Gosh the amount of tears, heart breaks, disappointments and every single negativity that this year had given me though, I don’t think I can bear it anymore. I hope 2018 will at least be a bit nice to me, I don’t really want to hope for too much.

Anyways, despite the horrific events that I went through this year, I decided to go back and remember all the good things that also came in 2017. I mean life is not all about darkness and sadness right guys? :>

It’s hard to choose my most favorite because every single one of these memories are precious to me so I’ll just go chronologically okies hehe

Making penyaram. HAHAHAHA. I know it sounds ridiculous but honestly I still can remember it clearly guys!!! It was actually our MIB Kenali Negara Kitani project and so we decided to have a cooking show bahaha. But hey who knows making penyaram can be that fun??? But God forbid you guys to watch the video because I cringe every time I see my face LOL.

KL with Teet, of course!!! It was a very chill trip guys, despite having only a day to shop our hearts out haha. Gosh I miss this iconic building already.

Also going to the dUCk store for the first time!!! dUCk has two physical stores now and I’m all pressured to go back there huhu. God can it be any sooner please? :<

Of course shopping physically at FV store instead of through online..and also met 2 Afghans there HAHA. #cardboardjaditah

OF COURSE THE MAIN HIGHLIGHT OF THE MONTH, YEAR AND LIFE!!! MEETING MY BABIES!!!!

Gosh I’m missing them so bad right now (I’m listening to Universe while writing this and I want to sob my heart out). Hopefully I’ll get to meet them again soon!!! Please pray for me guys bahaha #desperate I might or might not be addicted in attending this concert thing hahaha *death stares Teet*

Purchasing this expensive scarf offline shall be included of course, to my bank account’s despair haha sorry bb *pats my debit card* But hey, it’s one of my top favorite L.E though, because flowers~ <3

Meeting Fadza at the FV pop-up store in Brunei hehe #notmybfguys #IloveVivymore #DontblackmailmefromshoppingatFVpleaseVivy

One of the ever precious memories, meeting one of my favorite blogger and founder of Aere <3 I’m still pinching myself up until now to make sure it wasn’t a dream guys

And it was not a dream. EEEEEKKK <3 <3 <3

Not forgetting my first ever Bandarku Ceria hehe. As an anti social and introvert person, this is something big okay! Thank you to my law fam for dragging this lazy a$$ out to see this world early in the freaking morning……haha <3

Attending the Erba talk and meeting Sarah and Kak Suri too :>

Umm I know I haven’t blogged about this but I got invited to Pandora Rose Gold launch event guys!!! I’m not sure if I should blog about it ’cause I’m 2 months late now hahaaaa #fakeblogger but hey just tell me if you guys want to read it okay! (I also have loaaads of pretty pictures of the jewels…we’ll see teehee)

Last but not least, I finally scored beyond 3.50 for my CGPA guys! Scored 4 As and 1 A- while I thought I was gonna fail one module because it was darn hard for me. But Alhamdulillah I got A- instead!!! Now I need to maintain it and it is going to be a hell of a challenge as we’re going back to 8 modules (last semester we only had 5 modules) *CRIES BLOOD* Please please please pray for me guys, I really want to continue with double degree. May Allah swt ease our journey in studying, as it is one of our jihad for Him and Him only.

Well my 2017 was not that bad now that I’ve listed all of the sweet memories here hehe. Despite encountering a lot of disappointments, turn downs, unrequited love (GOSH THIS WAS RIDICULOUS I HATE MYSELF) and what seems like an endless cycle of crying my lungs out due to some unfortunate events but hey, I’m still glad that all of these things happened to me. 2017 was a tough year, it was like having a kickboxing with life guys! But all of the bruises that I got reminds me of my own strength, that I endured it all and I am still here, stronger even. It shaped me into a better person who can face obstacles without crying, or still crying but hey it’s okay to cry we’re still humans anyway ehe. I’m turning into a person that can stand on her own feet even after she got vigorously shoved down and I finally realize that this world is always open for me to explore but uh..I just need money…haha.

I also learnt that it’s okay to have little amount of friends who genuinely love and accept you as a whole, unconditionally, despite your chirpy days or even when you’re on your satanic mode in those 7 days per month haha. So…

Teet: Thank you for being the super duper awesome best friend one could ever ask for. From always being available for me whenever I need an accompany to fix my craving and to go to events to dragging my loser a$$ to meet EXO for the first time. Gosh I don’t think I will ever meet EXO if it was not because of your brave and YOLO a$$ bahaha. Though I always troll and pick on you (’cause let’s be honest here, it’s FUN HAHA) know that I always love you. Even if I were to be born as a different person and have my own cliques, I’d punch them and search for you. Serious bih. Thank you for making my 2017 durable and amazing. Please don’t ever stop loving me…or I’ll stand in front of your window until you accept me back as your best friend bahaha…#serious.

Bubi: You’re always far away (even this December we couldn’t hang out jeez) but despite that you always spare your time to video call us, though you’ve loads of friends there haha #NOTjealous. I mean who can resist our awesomeness right??? HAHAHA. So thank youu for not forgetting us and for always having time to listen to our ramblings and stupid stories 3 a.m in the morning. I can’t wait for you to come back home to us so we can be one…or 3…once again haha. I’ve loads of cafes and restaurants for us to try and also places to rest our tangled minds. I love you and….I hope my bath bomb will arrive safely okay be careful our sleepover is soon HAHA JOKESS!!!

Poop: Ugh this sounds selfish but I’m glad that you’re back for good. Thank you for dragging my fat a$$ to do sports and venture out even more. Also thank you for making my days by discussing stupid things (e.g: boys HAHA) and eating out and baby shark doo doo doo doo with Liam LOL. I hope all of your bad memories will stay in 2017 and so tomorrow, you should open a fresh new book. Not page okay, BOOK. I love you..can la..but not during the kickboxing warm up tho…Gosh I was DYING.

Icah: Well you guys might not know her but she was my junior back when we were still in hell (she even agreed that it was hell) HAHA. The one who approached me first of course and I’m glad that her bubbly self did. Thank youu for always going to me whenever you feel sad and mad and even happy. I honestly feel appreciated <3 You made me familiar of that particular feeling of having a baby sister ’cause I’ve none by blood, but I guess God sent you to me to be one right? Hehe. I hope you’ll get to meet EXO and Astro one day..with me of course!!! #duhhHAHA I love you, please don’t stop being the funny and bubbly girl that I love okay? :>

Nabilah: yes you made it into the list also because you were always there for me whenever I feel down on twitter (even if I didn’t directly mention that I’m sad I mean..h-how??) and you’d start to spam me with Jongdae, Kyungsoo and Lisa’s pictures. Only God knows how much I feel appreciated with such simple gesture T_T I mean you don’t have to really!!! But your tweets did helped me a lot in enduring such painful moments. So thank youu and I love you for doing that, but really you don’t have to always do it okay you deserve some rest too!! Hehe

I actually have a lot to thank but I don’t think I can finish it then HAHA. So thank you, if you’re my family, friends, my law fam or anyone that knows me, thank you for being in my life though in just a mere second, even it was a bad or good encounter. I am forever grateful for you guys for acknowledging a tiny salty person like me. I would also like to apologize if I were to hurt you in any ways, intentionally or unintentionally (also sorry for the DMs that I declined that said “hai I’d like to know you” and ended up making you hate me because my God that SCARED me ok. Who knows you just want to lure me, kidnap me and sell my organs???? *shivers*)

2017 may be a tough year for some of us, but don’t make this year to be a reason for you to stop blooming. You’re strong so don’t underestimate your capabilities. You’re worth it and don’t ever let anyone tell you that you’re less. Lastly, you’re loved, even if you feel like you don’t but baby girl, you are loved.

Such an emotional year isn’t it? I hope 2018 will at least allow me to exhale properly haha.

Anyway, last but not least, thank you to you guys here. For keeping me going despite me being a total fake blogger this year. I’m sorry that I’ve no interesting content to tell you guys and always making you guys feel bored with my same old yawn worthy antiques. But here you guys still, reading this while waiting for the clock to strike 12…or it’s already 12 days after this post? Haha. Thank you, really, for accepting me here and being a constant (silent) readers…or I’d like to call you guys, my chingus (it means friends haha). I love you guys and I appreciate you all in my heart.

Happy New Year 2018 guys. May this year will bring prosperity and make us closer to Allah swt.

Miza 2017, signing out <3

ERBA Beauty And Entrepreneurship Talk

Okay I KNOOOOWWWWW I’M SUUUPER DUPER LATE and would like to apologize for not being as active the past 2 months. I’ve loads to blog about though!!! But let’s just keep that aside first ’cause I’m scared of making promises that I’m unsure of uhu.

So as of the title, I was personally invited by Sarah Shahnor, founder of Modvier, to go to her talk here in Brunei. I’m not really a social type of person so I was a bit skeptical when it comes to that but it’s business and beauty talk, not just a pointless gathering. So I was like why not right??? Maybe it can benefit me a lot (and boy sure it did!). I was supposed to drag Teet along but she bailed on me sheesh…but hey, Poopy to the rescue, which was perfect ’cause she’s really good in this socializing stuff ehe.

We arrived there a bit late, the talk already started a bit. When we entered the venue I suddenly felt insecure because all of the ladies (and also some gents) who sat there were all freaking gorgeous guys!!! I was questioning my decision for a bit haha should’ve stayed home what is my ugly a$$ doing here. But since it’s too late to waltz out, I just decided to follow Poopy  and sat down. Sigh I need to gather more confidence for the sake of myself.

So the talk started with the MC introducing Sarah and also Kak Suri, both founders of Erba, a company which focuses on inner and outer beauty. Okay since this talk was like 2 months ago, I’m not gonna promise you guys that I’m gonna tell everything aight? I didn’t even jot down any points (pardon as this was my first ever talk that I attended to so I was all shy to even type things. I was the most conscious at that time hahaha) so I’ll just tell you guys what I remember okie :>

It started with Sarah’s business talk, how she found Kak Suri and Erba and decided to join in. I remember she talked about the 3 important S’s which are the main points of her business advices:

SET YOUR STANDARDS

 In business world, anyone can do the same thing as what you’re doing. For example, you sell scarves but there are loads of people selling it too you know, not just you. So the thing here now is, what makes your scarves different from others? What can you do in order to keep attracting consumers to buy your products on every new release? And the most important thing is, what can you do to make your consumers believe in the products you are selling? Fuuhh this feels like A’level once again haha. Anyways that’s why if you go through Erba’s Instagram account, you will see that their caption is not just about those attractive (and cringy sometimes haha) slogans that promises you fair skin in just an hour or burn your fats in a matter of second, they gave you informations that you need to know in their products too. This kind of marketing works well for a super conscious person like me, who is always paranoid in trying new products hence the amount of reviews I need to watch before purchasing especially beauty stuff hehe. So with the informations legitimately written by them, as a consumer it helps me a lot. Not only that they’re gaining my trust but at the same time I do gain some knowledge from them too. You’d know that this brand isn’t just selling stuff for the sake of money, but also is trying their best to help women out there. This is the kind of standard they are carrying and I adore it so so much!

BE SMART:

If I’m not mistaken, smart was one of the important points…hopefully I’m right haha. So obviously you need to be smart in handling a business or else it will flop #duhh hehe. One of the things that amazes me about these entrepreneurs is how smart they actually are in handling their businesses. Like there are sooo many scopes to think about and choices to be made, and the opportunity that come and go. Honestly, though I’m now pursuing in law, I would love to have my own business someday. At least a cute pink cafe would do where we all girlies can sit and chat while having cakes and coffees hehe. Okay let’s not get carried away haha. Sarah told us about her business venture, that before Modvier was born she used to spend a lot of money to open up a clothing line if I’m not mistaken..I’m sorry Sarah next time I’ll write or record everything okay! Please forgive me!!!

But that one particular project of her does not work guys, it failed despite the huge investment injected into the project. This prove that sometimes money can’t really solve things haha. But hey, money do can solve things okay, you just have to be smart! (e.g: buying me a new square dUCk so I’ll love you more…JOKESS). Sarah told us that her baby Modvier actually born during the time when Malaysian designers were starting to bloom. So she had an idea where instead of the designers themselves opening their own individual boutiques, which obviously will cost loads of money, she thought why not gather all of these designers clothing and sell it in one boutique instead? So she only had to focus on opening a boutique! So TA-DAA Modvier was born!!! I’m really interested to visit Modvier now, one day Miza one day ;>

STRENGTH:

That beautiful lady holding the mic is Kak Suri :>

The mic was then given to Kak Suri so she can share her advices too. So opening up a business can be an easy task to anyone (who has the money, of course) but the hardest part of having a business is actually maintaining it. So in order to keep your business running you obviously need strength to handle it, both mental and physical strengths I would say. Not only you, your business must have its own strength too. Honestly, I don’t really remember much about this part (SORRY KAK SURI..it was 2 months ago guys so forgive me *cries blood*). But hey! I do remember Kak Suri’s story about her having a clothing brand too! She told us that she used to own a muslimah clothing brand to help hijabis to be as stylish. But then she produced clothes that were too revealing in her opinion and when her daughter pointed it out to her about it too, she then decided to stop and close it down. After that Erba then was found with an intention of helping women out there to stay beautiful inside and out <3 She used to brew her jamu guys!!! Even the capsule jamu from Erba are her own recipe, which is awesome!!! I’ve yet to master this inner beauty thing (’cause uh..I LOVE sugar…) but after knowing Erba, I knew a little bit about my inner health and they indeed nudged me up from my unconscious and negligence of my inner health. But that only lasted for hours though, as expecte eheee…

Oh of course one more important S, but to be avoided (to my despair..)

SUGAR PEOPLE. Sigh…sometimes love can be so complicated huh?

So those are the areas which can be affected from high sugar intake. I just knew that us ladies only need 8 tablespoon of sugar daily. See sugar is not bad at all, but overdosing on it can do some several damages to your body and health. Oh ignore that that’s just the sound of my heart shattering into pieces…

Anyways as if sugar is not that evil enough, it can also give you bad mood guys. Have you ever indulge on a really sweet cake or drinks and went all “haah sugar makes me happy~” with heart signs floating above your head? It’s actually an uh-oh sign guys. Apparently being too dependent on sugar can give you the same affect as drug. Yep..DRUG. You’d be in bad mood if you’ve yet to consume it for so long, having random rage and all until someone shove sweet desserts down your throat, then you’d get back to your normal chirpy self again.

Sounds exactly like me. *awkward laughs*

Okay fineee I’ll try to change this one habit of mine and tame my sweet tooth self. I’ll try to give up those yummy matcha drinks, delicious mocha with extra sugar, gongcha only 0% sugar for now….*CRIES BLOOD* But for your own good Miza. Your. Own. Good.

I reallyyyy wish I could remember more of the talk guys but my brain failed me. Hopefully Sarah and Kak Suri will come back here to give more talk in the future, I will definitely force you girlies to come with me! Maybe we can chill together after that too hehe <3

So other than giving advices, they also explained to us products that Erba is offering. Not only they have jamu but they also have face mist, body scrub, makeup remover etc and we also got the opportunity to test it out first hand. The sniffing part was my favorite because I kid you not the smell of the products are soooo refreshing :>

Products testing time! That’s Sarah on the right hehe.

I mean look at the packaging!!! Sucker like me were (and is still) all heart eyes!!! I also couldn’t just pick a favorite so my favorites were the serum, scrub and face mist <3

Favorite scrub! I think I should invest on it soon hehe.

We also had a Q&A session after that and some lucky people get to bring products home..only when you ask and answer some questions though. Obviously I didn’t teehee (I need to fix my social skill A S A P)

On my left was Kak Suri while she was explaining to us the benefits of the jamu.

Mandatory picture with Sarah of course hehe. Thank you so much for the invitation!!! Please come back and have more talk ’cause I learnt a lot from you guys <3 (Didn’t manage to take a picture with Kak Suri as she was busy talking and taking pictures with others. Maybe next time :’>) I remember the first thing that Sarah pointed out was my Fiziwoo top and I thought I was overdressed guys. But she loved it so PHEW I guess it’s okay then hahaha.

Also made a new friend with this beautiful fashionista! Who kindly approached me first and also asked about my top hahaha hope to meet you soon Yushida! :>

With Poop the saviour of the day hahaha. Thank you so much for accompanying my awkward anti social a$$ to a social event like this <3 By the way boys, she’s single so hit me up on the comment section if interested HAHAHA. #butyoumustpray5timesdaily #addonsunnahprayerwouldbenice #mustalsohavestablejob #drivesferrari #didIscareyouallaway

Thank you so much Erba for such a lovely sharing session that I definitely benefited a lot from! Hopefully there will be more talk from you guys in the future and I promise you guys that we won’t be as silent as we were during the last talk haha #naturallyshy #justbruneianpeoplething #bahaha. I will also take some bullet points next time okay, definitely! Heheee~

Be Right Back

HELLO GUYS I’M SORRY I KNOW I KNOW I’M SUPPOSED TO FLOOD YOU GUYS WITH MY STORIES but I surprisingly have been going out nowadays and I have looaaaddss of pending dates to go with some of y’all so…be right back okay!

I’m actually working on the Erba talk post but I always get demotivated when writing it. I feel like I’ve lost my blogging rhythm ’cause I was used to write in formal english or malay due to exam season bahah. I want to get connected with you guys here again but as for now…let me finish up my dates first okay (and my thesis…what even…)

Till then, miss you and love you guys!

BE BACK SOON, I PROMISE!

Erdem’s Floral Fantasy

It’s been awhile since the last time I lashed out my love for stunning clothes so please bear with me if I sound extra crazy in this post hahaha. Also it’s been awhile since the last time I splurged on clothes (I need to save up for a very much needed vacation) so I’m kind of proud of myself…though I miss getting a honk from the delivery man, ripping a package off and sniff on a new fabric…but anyways…

HAVE YOU GUYS SEEN ERDEM X H&M COLLECTION??? NO??! ARE YOU FREAKING MAD?????!!!

One word: ENCHANTING.

When I first saw the collection, I was like “WOAH. THIS IS DEFINITELY MY AESTHETIC.” and I think I blurted that out almost everyday on twitter. But on the serious note, you guys know my obsession love for flowers and everything floral printed. I don’t know how to express it anymore, I just LOVE flowers and yes that’s an understatement! No words can ever describe my love for flowers (my dream wedding may or may not look like this Dior fashion show..Raf Simons first Dior couture showcase..yes that one…I think I can hear my future husband’s nervous laugh just now *nervous laughing along*) so when I was browsing thru the collection I kept on gulping and dried my mouth for a week.

I somehow feel thankful that Brunei has yet to carry much international clothing brands or you would definitely see me queueing up just to get these limited edition clothes, but at the same time I still feel disappointed because I can never buy or at least touch all of these beautiful masterpieces in real life. Sighs it’s alright, I’ll just watch people’s haul on youtube and be happy for them like I always do hehe. If any of you business people are planning to bring all these huge brands to Brunei..hello my name is Miza, I exist and I love clothes and will always free for pretty events ok…teehee…

Before I start on my favorite picks, please, click here and browse through it first, then you can go back here.

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HOW ARE YOU STILL ALIVE SIS???

No matter how many times I “entered” the website, I still died and resurrected back here in front of my laptop. I aspire to have such magnificent and dreamy website like that in the future. I mean, it screams thebloomingchick isn’t it??? *heart eyes* #agirlcandream

Okay so I assume that you’ve viewed the whole collection as I’m going to only show you guys 10 of my favorite pieces, as per usual. If you haven’t, please go back to the website because you NEED to see ALL of it. There are also pieces for men and I kid you not I’m still itching to dress my other half in it, but he’s late so PFFTT too late boy. I’ll just proceed to my picks for now..not gonna talk much ’cause the beauty is just indescribable haha.

This slip on sequin floral dress that I’d kill for but I’m still sane. I watched the teaser “The Secret Life Of Flowers” on Youtube and the dress was breathtaking. It bling like there is no tomorrow we might need a pair of sunglass to see it in real life guys bahaha. So there’s no surprise that this dress is the champion for me. I’d want to wear this for my 21st birthday next year though but to be able to have it hugged around my body would be a dream that’s too good to be true :’D

Surprisingly another dress :> This is the kind of dress my mom would buy for me when I was a kid (which made me hated dresses so much during my teenage years haha) but I guess I’m starting to get in touch with the ultra feminine princess side of me once again ehe. I’ve watched some haul video on this and most of them said that this dress is pretty heavy, which makes it even more luxurious. USD299 is okay for western luxury brand honestly…or I’m just a sucker…

You know me and my love for outerwear. There is also a matching pants for this but I wouldn’t wear it with this one though as it can look heavy (but you do you). I’d definitely wear this blazer with a white blouse and leather pants to make it more like a street style look yet still having that girly vibe hehe.

I know, another dress but wait! Tiffany SNSD wore this okay! And she looked hella gorgeous in this guys, this dress was made for her. Love the lace and victorian style details happening on the chest area. Ugh my heart. I hope I won’t end up selling my whole wardrobe just to get a piece from eBay ’cause people are reselling it there with ridiculous prices T__T

I mean…do I really need to say more? *rolls on the floor while crying*

I saw Scha Alyahya received this bag (don’t know if for free or she bought it though..) on Instagram and my soul escaped my body for a good 5 minutes. If she got it for free…H&M Malaysia…we’re friends right…I exist….#kidding #maybenot

Um definitely need this to channel my inner Cher #DUHH. This would be perfect as Brunei’s really moody nowadays raining here and there. Would wear this while blogging at Coco cafe while sipping on a cup of hot coffee and nibbling on the scrumptious cake (unpaid advertisement: I LOVE COCO CAFE. The cakes..which I think I’ve tasted around 7 different flavors already hehe are delicious, the ambiance..I want to date there!!!) ahh…everything…including my outfit and the outcome of my post…would be delicious…

Pearls and blings, all I ever need. Love that it’s a clip type of earring so if you have yet to pierce your ears, you still can wear this beauty. Also came in royal blue, which Tiffany paired it with the victorian dress if I’m not mistaken hehe. Also it’s huge enough for us hijabis to wear it with what I’d like to call “showing off my earrings” hijab style. Seriously at this point, getting this one would be enough for me… *cries blood*

Matching with the bag but the only thing that I don’t really like about this shoes is the kitten heels. I love kitten but kitten heels…not so much…But the embellishments there still managed to sought my heart <3

*Nervous laughing while trying to control my sanity because…RUFFLES…* Remember the matching blazer pants that I said just now? I would totally wear it with this top right here. Tuck it in then Imma swing out of the door with the bag, scarf, earrings and shoes…until the security pulls me back inside the store and forces me to give it back…there goes my hyperactive imagination..

PHEEWW what a collection. I thought Balmain x H&M was my favorite but florals always win. The collection was released 3 days ago if I’m not mistaken and obviously sold out already by now so…but you know there’s always eBay (though I’ve trust issue with it..) if you guys want to buy…it…for..me…haha..no? Ok 🙁

The men’s collection was hella gorgeous too though, there is this one floral sweatshirt that I’d want and if could would get the biggest size one. Also socks, pajamas which you can style it as a casual, slip ons and many many more. Needless to say, this collaboration is by far my favorite and mended my heart ’cause Kenzo’s wasn’t really my fav haha.

Okay gotta go back to reality now, no more me on cloud9 sniffing on these beauties. I’m already late for my afternoon class!

But before that…buy me the earrings please…you kind soul! <3

Photos courtesy of: H&M

Mood: Extremely Motivated

Guys I attended UNISSA’s convocation for the second time this morning and I swear I’ve never felt so genuinely excited and happy before. Okay, except during Exo’rdium…or when I got accepted to study in my current uni…but really, it was the best Monday morning ever!!!

I honestly don’t know where to start, how to express this feeling to you guys except for repeating how ecstatic I feel from this morning and up until now. UGH I JUST CAN’T WAIT TO GRADUATE GUYS!!! CAN TIME MOVE FASTER?? CAN WE SKIP ALL OF THIS AND JUST GO STRAIGHT TO MY GRADUATION DAY???

I’m gonna graduate next year insyaAllah and by watching our seniors up there receiving the certificates that they deserve, given by our own beloved King makes me all giddy. I almost cried, guys, and it wasn’t even my graduation yet! Thinking of all the hard works and obstacles that they went through and imagining the feeling of holding a piece of paper that tied up years and years worth of blood and sweat made me proud of each of them, though I don’t even know them personally.

My journey only started last year, though it’s crazy how time flies that now I’m in my second and final year of HND. Was my first year easy? Heck no. As someone who has a science background instead of law, I was struggling so hard in trying to fit in and get myself used to the changed field. But it was my own choice and passion was the one that pushed me through. Alhamdulillah so far my results are outstanding, beyond what I’ve targeted as someone who is still new to law. Life is crazy, guys.

Let me tell you guys this, I never told anyone this before but my initial plan was to pursue engineering. That was during my O’level time though, when everyone was pressured to set their future straight. So I took Maths, Physics and Business Studies for my A’level. I planned on nailing my A’level and get myself a scholarship, fly away from Brunei to wherever uni that’d accept me in the UK. But that didn’t happen, I was struggling so bad. Again my interest changed, I kinda liked business after that. Maybe business is for me as I kept on failing maths and physics no matter how hard I studied. Business was the only subject that kept me afloat, though I slept and skipped almost all classes (SORRY SIR) but I passed anyway. So I was thinking, hmm maybe business is for me. Okay fine, pursuing business in UBD would do then. I guess my rizq is not outside Brunei.

The insane thing is, here I am. In UNISSA, doing LAW. I hated law, guys. I hated history, I judged Teet for taking history for her A’level. I made faces whenever she told me that they had to make essays, memorizing important dates and events. I always thought that law people are lunatic. But little did I know that I’m actually one of the lunatics bahaha #inmyface

I didn’t get any award for being the best student, my tariff point was only 160 points. I couldn’t even sign up for degree at that time. I was a huge disappointment to everyone in my life. I was depressed, but at the same time strong willed to try taking A’level again whatever it is to get my dumb a** a seat to pursue law. It was a rocky journey. But look guys, here I am. Not doing degree but HND instead, but honestly just like what my friend has said it is just double degree in HND disguise pfffft.

I didn’t get to go to a well known university in the UK or AU, but here I am going to a very humble uni (I mean really humble. Our uni used to be an old UBD, which my mom used to attend and also nursing school haha). But in this little campus I am blessed with abundant amount of knowledge that can benefit me both here in Dunya and Akhirah, insyaAllah. Allah swt also blessed me with an amazing law fam, that surprisingly were as lost as me, yet here we are walking on the same journey to become law enforcers together. Despite me being all insecure about my current level, I finally realized how Allah swt is actually blessing me in His own way. I’m going to graduate, twice (or more hehe) from this uni. I’m going to wear that green robe with gold, legit gold songket weave, twice. I’m going to go up on the stage, getting the folder of my hard work given by none other than His Majesty, twice. I’d get to make my family proud of me, twice.

I can’t wait to make my family proud again, I’ve been a disappointment ever since I was a teenager to them. When was the last time I made them proud, I can’t even remember. Looking at the proud parents this morning makes me all enthusiastic to pursue my passion even more, because really, nothing can ever compare to their happiness, moreover if the reason behind it is you. I even saw grandparents attending the convocation, despite having backache and leg pain. The grandma behind me was leaning on her grandchild’s arm while hugging him tight, looking at the camera with contented smile plastered on her face. After that she proudly patted him while muttering “tahniah” and guys, it was the most heartwarming scene I’ve ever witnessed. I seriously can’t wait for my turn.

The truth is, I never seen myself getting all obsessed with law. I didn’t notice that I was actually craving for knowledge up until now. UNISSA was never part of my plan. It’s CRAZY I tell you. But this is what has been predetermined by God for thousands of years already. This is the best path for me, this is my blessing from Him and I will never take it for granted anymore. Obviously my journey’s still long, I might be done with degree when I’m 24 years old while you guys might probably be having your first child already haha. But sometimes it’s okay to stop and count your blessings, you’ll see how much things you’ve taken for granted.  Never forget to thank Allah for everything and everything in this life.

Just because you fail, doesn’t mean you’re not going to succeed. Success doesn’t come just like that darling, you have to work harder. In fact, failing before success is actually a hidden form of blessing. Coming from someone who’ve failed multiple types of exams, believe me it’ll make you a stronger and a grateful person. I’m still a no one to advice you all but seriously, if I weren’t to fail jatuh tergolek terkangkang, I’d probably be living a mediocre life being all smug looking down at y’all. All of the struggles had opened my eyes to see that everyone’s going through hardships too, so always stay humble, always keep your feet attached t0 the ground. The harder you work, the more effort seen by Allah swt, the wider the door of success will be opened for you insyaAllah. So please pray for my success guys, I’ll always pray for yours kay hehe. May Allah bless us with knowledge that will benefit us both in Dunya and Akhirah <3

Also my favorite thing was family and friends giving flowers and balloons to the graduates omg!!! I was all chirpy looking at balloons here and there guys! I mean yeah you guys don’t have to give me balloons next year though, just give me air balloon would be enough hehe. Oh, make sure that my flower is orchid okay. Huge moth orchid, preferably in white and purple. Maybe a Gucci Dionysus too, THAANKS <3

dUCker Up!

Let’s be honest here, I’ve never ever ever ever thought of having dUCk cosmetics in my life. I always thought that dUCk is going to associate the brand with scarves and stationaries only but no, always have something unexpected up their sleeves! Soon enough I’m gonna go bankrupt because of this brand…*wipes tears using my dUCk scarves* well at least it gives me pure happiness haha.

Anyways, when D announced that they are going to open a new store just in front of the first one, I was so confident that it’s going to be for their home and living products. So I was kinda chill and mentally ready for the reveal. By looking at the dUCk towels, confirm la home and living.

“I NEED YOU TO…FOLLOW @DUCKCOSMETICS!!!!!!”

WAIT HOLD THE FRICK FRIDGE FUDGE FLIP FLOPS, DUCK WHAT????!!!!

I had to rub my eyes a few times before rereading that line, even considered myself to get spectacles guys. DUCK MAKEUP?! IS THIS A DREAM COME TRUE?!

You guys know my undying love for cosmetics and everything beauty, so I of course went a bit nut. Jokes, I went 10000% nuts. I mean, who would’ve thought?! Now I’m not gonna be surprised if dUCk is going to produce their own cars in the future bahaha.

The first product that they revealed was the makeup remover. See, I’m a bit skeptical when it comes to skincare products, I think I’ve told you guys repeatedly that I need to watch, listen and read endless of reviews (though sometimes this doesn’t applicable when I decided to impulse buy things haha) until I’m convinced enough to buy it. For now I’m still doing my research for this makeup remover. I’ve sensitive skin, when a product doesn’t work with my face I’d get bad breakouts around my cheeks. So let’s keep this product on hold first kay hehe.

The second product that they revealed was #lipstickwitu, aka the bullet lipsticks. Bullet lipstick is definitely my least favorite lip product guys, it’s hard to get it right on my lips and I’m anal when it comes to applying lipstick, everything needs to be precise #duhhh. I don’t like my lips looking like a 5 years old painted it for me, even Pennywise has beautifully drawn lipstick on its lips so I’m not gonna embarrass myself by looking lower than it haha. So I haven’t purchased this, yet. But will definitely going to try at least one if there’s a color that’s going to attract me :>

#GlossipGirl was the third to get introduced. Again, my least favorite. Well I was a gloss girl when I was still a teenage, but that was because I was a lazy bum who only knew lipgloss back then. Even during that time I wasn’t really crazy about it, especially when the wind blew my hair and some of the strands sticked and held onto my lips for its dear life #haramyears. Even up until now it isn’t my fav because it doesn’t really last long and I’m not really a fan of the sticky texture. Not sure if I’m going to invest on this any sooner, but I won’t also reject it if I were to get it for free….JUST SAYINGG haha

Finally the product that made me went wild, the #MatteDecisions.

It was a matte decision indeed……………………….no? Jeez y’all lame.

I don’t think it is necessary for me to reveal my obsession for matte liquid lipstick. When D revealed this gem, I was like “YEP DEFINITELY GETTING THEM”, without even thinking! I seriously need to tone done this soft spot for matte liquid lipstick….and dUCk…

They have it in totally matte and also metallic. Yes, metallic! And you guys judged me for being all crazy haha. I’m particularly excited to try the metallic one the most because I have yet to own any metallic lipstick in my collection. So yep, I bought one matte and one metallic….for now…ehee

Of course, what is dUCk without being extra. The box came with its own sleeve cover, just look at that pretty illustration there <3 D claimed that the lip cream has vitamin E, Jojoba Oil and Olive Oil in it. No parabens of course!

And of course, D’s note at the back! Another thing that caught my attention is “formulated in the UK”, that’s when you know that this brand ain’t playing around. Animal cruelty free, of course :> And yes, you can feel the texture of the box. Packaging = on point.

Let me introduce to you, Minimally Tracy and Fearless Lane.

Let’s start with Minimally Tracy first okay guys hehe. So I went for the nude because I don’t have any nude liquid lipstick yet, so I opted for this one. I unboxed and showed some of you guys my first impression on snapchat (add me up! It’s mizamurfiqah if I’m not mistaken. And oh, I only accept girlies lol.) and I was pretty amazed by it, I honestly thought that I’m gonna hate it and had my hopes laid down low. The consistency of the matte one is definitely creamy (and thick…jangan kuning please), I once tried applying it on top of my lip balm and the lipstick just moved here and there. So definitely not gonna mix an already creamy lipstick with something creamy too haha. But if I were to apply it on its own, it does the job although it doesn’t stick immediately onto your lips. My tip is to apply one coat, don’t worry if it’s still sheer. Let it dry, then apply another coat on top but make sure that you don’t apply it too thick as it can crack after wearing it for too long. I tried eating while wearing it (pass), kissed Marhan with it on (pass) and even brought it to swim! Proud to say, this dUCk can swim too guys haha. It was easy to work with the applicator and doesn’t smudge easily as D claimed, for BND25, this matte liquid lipstick is #MizApproved (By the way, if you’re a bullet lipstick hoarder you can find exactly the same shade from MAC, it’s called Kinda Sexy hehe)

Fearless Lane, the metallic beauty. I was mostly excited to try this beauty on. I’m really bad in describing colors but to me this is more red with purple undertone…or vice versa…but ok, maybe purplish pink…but now it’s kind of purple to me… Let’s settle for purple pink, like plum. Oh my God I’m failing!

Okay, back to the topic. This one glides on your lips effortlessly, guys. It sticks immediately onto your lips and dry pretty quickly, definitely my jam. Since it is metallic of course the finish look is shiny and shimmery. One coat is definitely enough, also kiss proof and smudge proof! But I tried to eat shawarma while wearing it, the centre of my lips kind of faded a bit….maybe the shawarma was too oily bahaha. Sorry shawarma, you’ve to carry the blame for now lol. One of the things that I love about lip product is the versatility. I tried using this metallic lipstick as my eyeshadow and guys, it was so stunning! I was just playing around after I saw D posted a picture of a model wearing the gold metallic lipstick on her eyelids. The little shimmers from the product made it extra cute, will show you guys the full look when I decided to recreate it again okay no worries hehe. I even tried the famous Beyoncé glossy eye makeup using this and coat it with a bit of lipgloss from my MAC Ariana Viva Glam…LET ME HEAR YOU SAY HAAAYY MS. CARTER~

Safe to say, Fearless Lane is #MizApproved <3

So far I’m loving these two, Minimally Tracy is now my go to lipstick and whenever I feel extra bold, I’d take Fearless Lane instead. With BND25 you’ll get the lipstick and kind of huge box with a sleeve like above. dUCk is not dUCk if it wasn’t injected with any luxury and extravagant here and there hehe. Though I don’t mind receiving it with smaller packaging :>

The last one to be revealed was the #AllEyeAsk eyeshadow palette. Again, you guys know me. I need hundreds of reviews from trustworthy people first, then I’d consider to buy. I probably will have to go to the store and swatch it myself then I might invest in one, if the quality matches with my expectation. But if you guys still want to purchase it, they are still in stock on FV’s website (of course) under the brand dUCk. You guys know the drill hehe. I heard that there is going to be highlighter too and I’m really looking forward for that! I’m gonna be disappointed if the name isn’t going to be #BlindMe though bahaha.

I know I’m late but congratulations for the newly launched products and store D! InsyaAllah will come there soon hehe. Can’t wait to play around inside the gorgeous store! <3 <3 <3 #AlwaysproudofyouD #Iloveyou #Butpleasecalmdownwithreleasingnewproducts #mywalletisDYING

Alright that’s all that I’ve for you guys, as much as I want to review more of the products. Maybe in the future kay hehe. Any questions of #MatteDecision can be written down the comment section okay girlies! (or tweet me, I’m cool hehe). Okay now excuse me while I’m gonna…dUCker up my lips….

No?

Y’all lame haha…JOKING

The Climb

I went hiking guys.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay 5 minutes for you guys to laugh and snort at me PFFTT.

I swear the last time I went hiking was when I was still in primary school (when hiking was a cool family thing, I’m glad that it’s not anymore…) so when Poopy Cat told me that she’s gonna bring me to hike at Tasek Lama, I just laughed. Maybe this girl is joking you know how princess I am. Cannot be too long under the sun (I have eczema), cannot get dehydrated for too long because I’m a mermaid duh and did you just say legit hiking in the jungle where all types of wild insects are residing??? Pfftt she’s definitely joking!!!

She wasn’t, guys. This was me sliding down the rocks ’cause my shoes were too slippery…okay FINE another 1 minute for you all to laugh over my misery sheesssshhhh.

Okay 1 minute is over guys. Time to move on.

Anyhooo, I went to Poopy’s house as early as 6:40a.m and she drove me to Tasek Lama for the hike. See, Poopy’s already familiar with the place, I mean duhh she’s really fit and sporty, which is the total contrast of me. She told me that we’re going to go to the 30 minutes route so I was like oh okay 30 minutes only pfftt not that long and should be easy, even my grandma can probs do it.

We arrived 45 minutes after with me all sweaty and palms dirty with soils.

I was judging Poopy so hard ’cause she was walking casually as if she was walking around the mall guys, while I was desperately holding onto the ropes and the roots and the branches and the trees the leaves, also holding onto my dear life! She dared to hike while editing pictures for her instagram, leaving me literally climbing behind her. The audacity. The ground was slippery too because it was raining before that…I get it you pro hahahaha. *cries soils*

Poopy when she told me that we’re almost there, when we were actually just halfway thru -___-

“we’re almost there! I can see it” LIES.

Okay nice view, you’re forgiven.

I WE MADE IT ALIVE!!! Also never knew that this tower exist, if only we can climb it too haha.

I was panting so hard, guys. My legs were wobbly, my heart was racing and my hands were shaking. Poopy, again, just casually sitting down as if the route wasn’t challenging enough for her. I mean hello??? Not trying to be dramatic but I COULD’VE DIED THERE.

I sat beside Poopy when she told me that there’s a short 10 minutes walk to this place with a beautiful scenery. Hmm 10 minutes should be fine I think, that doesn’t sound so bad…maybe the route won’t be as challenging as before…

Well damn….haahaa…WHY.

Took me good 20 minutes I think…hahaha.

Again, beautiful scenery. Poopy’s forgiven once again.

We sat on one of the huge rocks in silence and just enjoying the view while the cold wind was blowing softly up there. It was sooo tranquil and quite guys, just the sound of the bugs buzzing here and there could be heard, which I was surprisingly keen of.  We could see some buildings from there and it amazed me how high the hill actually is. Huge buildings were only the size of my thumb from above there! I took a deep breath and sighed in content, forgetting my wobbly legs, dirty hands and the additional butt sore. The climb was worth it.

To think about me struggling so hard to reach the top (Poopy obviously doesn’t included because she’s a pro pfftt), made me think of real life struggles. Trying to reach the top was not an easy task to do. There were several obstacles where I had to think before making my next move, there were divided path where I had to make a choice, prioritizing the best path that won’t lead me to fall flat on my face. There were few stumbling and slipping on the slippery ground, needing help from the ropes to hold onto my dear life. There were also sacrifice made, where I had to let myself all dirty just to make it to the end, though I sound so dramatic here. But in the end, it was really worth it, being able to witness all the greeneries, the birds flying free and just adore Allah swt’s creation up there, subhanAllah <3

To me the climb was like life. Obviously the path was full of obstacles, so does life. No matter how much we tried to avoid it, it is inevitable. All we have left is to go through it and move on to the next obstacle, probably a bigger one also. We also have to make choices in life, and we have to think of the best choice for us to achieve our dreams. Choosing also means risking, we won’t know if the choice will successfully bring us pass through the obstacle we’re facing. But we gotta try it anyway because we won’t progress if we’re scared. But then again, even our choice can betray us sometimes, making us stumble and slip. Again, that’s life. We’re still human beings and we’re bound to make mistake so we can learn from it. Nobody’s perfect to begin with. But never forget to get up and come back stronger after that, as mistake was also made to toughen us up. The ropes were our family and friends, don’t be too ego, it is okay to seek help from them too.

The journey may seem endless, but we never know what’s waiting for us up there. We get tired and we started to whine, but at the same time we told ourselves that this journey is made for us, so just keep on walking. We’ll go through this and we’ll get there…so much of 30 minutes walk…hahaha jokesss. Metaphorically, I’m obviously still climbing my own dream success hill currently. I might still be at the bottom all I know, or at the middle already only God knows. But thinking of how beautiful the top view was motivated me to climb positively, knowing that Allah swt is watching all of our efforts and reward it accordingly. It is a really great motivation to me now.

I’ve been feeling so worthless, useless and stupid these past few days. It was my fault too for listening to people for too much. But at the same time I can’t help but to feel belittled after being compared by my own family member. I feel like I wasn’t good enough, them thinking me achieving things that meant a lot to me but are apparently nothing to them hurts me so much. I’m not seeking for any praises or anything, I just want a support system because I know that I can never handle this alone. But no, they think that my HND level is NOTHING. If only they knew that HND is just the same, legit the same as double degree. Heck, we even advanced studying modules from double degree year 3, 4 and 5, and I already secured myself some A- even before doing degree for the modules. But as if people care right haha. I only got compared to “anak si anu yang pandai buat degree di luar” instead. Dismissed. You’re irrelevant to them Miza. And they dared to ask why I always preferred to chill with my friends instead *laughs*

Anyway, though they have big mouths I still cannot do anything lol. I still have to respect them, but I hope I’ll be given the patience to endure this kind of people. They are like one of the obstacles that I faced while hiking and I know exactly that I’ll pass through them and will prove them wrong. I know I wasn’t supposed to expose my personal problems here I’m so sorry guys, but I just want to tell you guys to not be like me. Whoever it is, whether it’s your family member or a complete stranger, never let their words condemn you and bring you down.  You do you, believe in yourself and be firm and strong, not everyone is going to support and love you. Have faith in God and focus on those people that truly love and support you, because they are the ropes that are going to bring you to the top with them.

And one of the ropes has got to be Poopy Cat haha. Thank you so much for dragging my lazy a** to hike on an early Sunday morning Poop. Not only I feel a bit fit now but I also received a life lesson from the experience too hehe. But please don’t drag me again anytime soon okay, next year should be fine hahaha. I’d rather walk in a pair of 6 inch pumps while shopping :>

Haters (and my fats) this way please. Teeheeee~