Second Chance

I know I know I said that I’ll be busy up until next week but here I am talking with you guys as though I’ve been leisuring, sipping on my coconut cup half sitting under the sun while motioning my hand to tell you to join me, saying “join me darling, here grab this fresh coconut and oh no worries darling it’s alcohol free” with my fake british accent. NO. I’m actually still busy…so many things happened and are going to happen, which freaks me out. I wish I could tell you guys but I just can’t at this moment. I’ll reveal it when I’m ready.

Actually

I’m getting married guys..

JOKESSS. No one’s getting married calm down I’m only 19 I’m not ready to be tied down. And I’m honestly scared of marriage, even though I’m passionate when it comes to Munakahat (marriage/family law), pretty ironic there. As though past incidents weren’t traumatising enough, I love finding the truth behind every existing marriage in this world. I know when we attend a wedding ceremony we’re kinda blinded by the mesmerising decorations done to celebrate the newlyweds. Then we, especially girls, will imagine our own wedding ceremony while wondering how our husband would look like in suit. Ahh..the beauty of wedding…made us forget about the bittersweet journey we’re going to go through after that one (err..or more..) historical day(s). It’s going to be just you, your husband and the upcoming kids living happily ever after…

But these books actually saved me from believing in constant happiness in marriage, how naive I was.

Siti Rosmizah has got to be my most favourite author ever!!!! Andai Itu TakdirNya is my most favourite work of hers, this book has been with me since 2009 guys! Yes I’ve been reading it since I was 12 hehe I swear I could read it forever. I thought everything was over and that the main characters would live happily ever after, even though it’s fictitious I still remember feeling all glad and giddy in the inside. Not until the second book came and crashed my dream.

SCREAMS. AUTHOR PLEASE LET THEM BE. Why’re you so evil *cries blood*

After 8 years, the main guy screwed things up…again. He had a perfect life, a perfect wife and family yet he screwed things up. He had chosen his ego and money over his family guys eeee can I cangak him seriously. Similar incidents from book 1 happened but this time it was much more brutal to the point I cried buckets of tears and mucus. I had to tell myself to breathe every 5 minutes, I wasn’t even aware of holding my own breath. It was intense and I was charged with abundant amount of hate on several characters but I also hate myself for being a weak hearted because same as the main lady, I forgave him in the end..unwillingly though haha. But I understand her reasons. I might say that I’d totally kick my husband out of my life if he’s messing with me right now, but only God knows what I’m going to really say and do in the future.

I learnt a lot from these books honestly. The first book is one of the reasons why I’m actually interested in Syariah, Munakahat to be more specific. I want to learn more about marriage, family and all the laws Allah has set for us to follow for the sake of harmonic life in Dunya and Akhirah. The second book taught me that there’s no such thing as happily ever after here in Dunya but only in Akhirah. And to achieve that, we have to face the tests given from the Almighty with strong faith first. And of course by following His principal too. So girls it is important to search for a man that can guide you closer to the Almighty. Like hello I want to be with you forever ok, who says forever does not exist? God has promised us!

I feel even more traumatised after reading the second book honestly. I know it’s a fiction story but it could happen in real life too. Heck it’s probably happening already somewhere. I’d give the lady a warm hug and the guy a warm kick on the nuts. She scooped him back on his feet 8 years ago and 8 years after he screwed things up again guys. God. I still can’t get over it.

So what do you guys think? Would you forgive him if you were the main lady?

Do people actually deserve a second chance?