Well..kinda. Actually not entirely free though, I just had gotten myself out of something that has been bothering my life (and heart) for the past 3 months.
I passed my driving exam guys.
annoying driving classes.
No more JPD.
I’M JPD FREE.
Well kinda because I have not gotten my license card yet because I have to go through this new system where there’ll be a presentation shown to us and we have to orally answer the 5 questions in order to get it. Ugh. Even the workers there are annoyed with the new system. It’s actually still under the process of trial and error though…why am I always bad luck, always get myself to become the subject sheesh.
Anyhow, at least I don’t have to sacrifice my afternoons anymore ahhh..and I also don’t have to feel the anxiety that I would get before my classes. I’m a big scaredy cat honestly I should seriously reflect myself and change hahaha. You guys should see how pale I was during my turn, bet y’all would have a good laugh bahaha.
I still remember my first ever driving class back on the 26th of February. I never drove a car before, even the auto guys. So I had a mini heart attack when my teacher told me to sit on the driver’s seat. Calmed myself a bit by saying to myself “maybe she’ll tell me to go out after this and show me the steps and all while I’m on the passenger’s seat”. Soon enough I saw her walking to the car and I was all ready to push the door open…until she entered and sat beside me.
what. on. earth.
“How seldom did you try to drive a car before?”
err…what do you mean seldom..bahahaha you must be joking
With a sigh she said “ok, press the clutch using your left leg”
How about if I clutch on my dear life instead?
“ok shift to gear 1”
Yeah sure I have 1 life too though
“release the hand break”
What do you mean I have to release my life???
“slowly raise your left leg and gently press down the accelerator”
Ok yep gotta pray that the angel of death will take my soul gently
Ok la a bit drama queen moment there but my first day wasn’t really that bad. In fact, I actually had fun teehee. I still couldn’t believe that I drove a car on that day, I was sooo sakai! It was all fun until you have to repeat everything and discover your weaknesses within those practices. I don’t know why I became even more careless each time, even my teacher was annoyed of me bahaha. I don’t blame her though, she has a lot of students under her and this scaredy was happened to be her student. Gosh I feel sorry for her. She must be feeling extra light without me under her pressure now, like finally haha.
I did not expect myself to pass this exam guys like I did BAD on the road. I was more concerned about my performance inside the track rather than on the road. I kept on thinking about the hill and parking..which then turned out I aced the hill and did a good job trying to park the car (though I accidentally released the clutch too high and killed my engine..was forgiven though PHEW). I was told to go straight outside after I did my parking, and gotten myself to drive on road number 4.
HECK. YES. THE EASIEST OF ALL.
All confident and felt a bit smug too, I went down. When I was about to take sides, the gear messed with me. Good. God. I swear I’ve pressed the clutch so deep if it were a person he’d succumb himself to death in a matter of seconds. After several tries, it finally worked. Was kinda slow but I managed to get to the right side of the road. God must’ve given His mercy to me because the roundabout was almost empty when I arrived, so I don’t really have to stop there (which I hate so much because I’d had to balance my clutch and accelerator…and yes I kinda suck). But as I tried to enter the Sungai Akar road, I kinda screwed things up a bit. I didn’t get to enter the left lane because there were cars, so I had to use the right lane and dear God I almost lost the control on my steering (the car on the left was so kurang ajar and fast but did not even entered the S.A road!!!! Like hello have mercy can’t you see my JPD symbol??) and panic started to rise.
I was trying to calm myself down when the examiner told me to use the U-turn to go back to JPD.
What. Excuse me can you repeat? Do you mean we won’t use the long road? Have I done something wrong to you?
It was actually my first time using the U-turn there guys. Imagine the life or death moment I just faced. I think my teacher forgot to teach me there. It also happened to be the worst u-turn, ever. I can’t even see the cars properly, I can only see their roofs! At that point I just want to sob out loud and go to my mommy (which was waiting inside the JPD building btw). I managed to do it though, without killing my engine *blows nails*
But the examiner had to help me, he even yelled at me to race the accelerator. I was so sure that I’m going to fail at that moment. But you cannot blame me! I’d done it smoothly with an auto, but it was a manual car guys! Talking about balancing clutch and oil, I can’t even do balance diet properly! and it was my first try, ever! *inhale* *exhale* ok we’re cool.
During the drive way back to the JPD I got lectured a bit. I was even more sure that I’m going to fail. So I kinda nailed it during the last moment, it was my last chance.
“wait inside, I have to recount your mark so that you won’t fail”
I walked inside, smiled weakly to my new friend (that I made literally few minutes before my exam) and found my teacher. I think she saw my demotivated face and patted my back. Went straight to boss chick and told her that I did very badly. Thinking about all the money and time spent there made me want to bawl even more. So I just sat there and sulked after done ranting to boss chick. Even planning to tell her to just get me a driver if I were to fail.
Almost half an hour later I heard my teacher yelled my name from a far with a paper on her hand.
“You passed!” with her “DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU SCARED ME I THOUGHT YOU’VE FAILED” face. Ok ignore this drama queen over here but I literally gasped my lungs out guys.
I passed. 12 hours worth of effort, I’m finally done!!!! WOOHOOO
Not until the workers there told me that I won’t get my license until I go through another exam. Great. Just. Great. More time for me to prepare mentally and physically for the ugly photo of me on the card. Thank you, though.