My emo metre just exploded guys. I’m having my period, that’s one. Second, the new kitten that I’ve been feeling sooo attached to these past few months, that I called Suraya, got ran over and died.
My eyes, nose and cheeks are still red from sobbing hard. I was driving on the small road outside my house when I saw her, frozen. I took a peek from my car and my heart raced, praying that it’s not her. But it looked like her. So I immediately drove to my house and was praying hard that she, her sister and her mom would come out and watch me arrive, as usual. But she didn’t, guys. And she never will.
It hurts me to see how much she must’ve suffered. She got hit literally on her head, her jaw dislocated and some of her organs bursted out of the opened wound. My legs went weak and I literally cried out loud on the road, in front of her soulless body. She was beautiful, guys. I loved her.
She was just fine this afternoon. I happily bid her good bye before driving off to uni while she silently watched me. Never knew that was the last goodbye ever. If only I knew, I’d bring her along with me. If only I was given more time to love her, I’d shower her with my love that she deserves. My heart hurts knowing that I can never kiss her anymore, can never embrace her in my arms. But I hope she’s happy now, in cat heaven enjoying a high class life having served A class fishes haha.
As right now, I’m blaming myself for loving too much. But you know what, anything that we own, everything that we have, everyone in our lives, belongs to Allah swt. Everything goes back to Him, you, even me. That was one thing that I forgot just now, that no matter how much you love something or someone, someday, they’ll be taken away from you. So cherish them while they’re still here in your life, you never know when the time will come. It’s okay to love, it’s better than regretting for being stingy with it. I love you all, I hope you all will start to cherish the right people properly, because we all deserved to be loved, especially by Him.
I’m okay now, I know my Suraya’s happily running around in her castle right now, right God? hehe