I’M BACK! AFTER SO LONG!!! I MISS THIS WHITE BOX SO MUCH (and I know that you guys miss me too it’s ok to admit it guys teehee). Exams are finally over, for this semester, so I’m free once again! For only around 2 weeks only though because I’ve special semester to attend *cries blood*. Anyway, it’s been soooo long my last post was when? More than a month ago? #fakeblogger #thisiswhyImstillafraidtoclaimthatImablogger
I know I know, I was supposed to blog about this at least 2-3 days after the big day. I’m so sorry guys, but after I went back from KL workloads literally came to me like a tsunami. I had endless tests, assignments and I was in charge of editing our MIB project (this one stressed me out so much. I had 0 experience in making videos but I volunteered myself. What. Was. I. Thinking. Thank God it turned out OK and we have a video to present PHEW.) As a person who has a focus span of a goldfish (is there even such thing bahaha), I’m pretty bad in juggling things honestly. I’m not the person who can multi-task because I’m “a bit” cerewet when it comes to my work ’cause I always want the best quality for literally everything. It’s annoying, I know, I’m also annoyed of it honestly haha. Anyways, let’s go back to almost 2 months ago….
So it started with a tweet
And then we were there.
The one who dragged me, none other than Teetee guys.
I don’t really show my ultimate fangirl side here (I think…but I remember adding Jongdae’s pictures here and talked about Jongdae a bit…but that was only a little side of the fangirl me LOL). I basically wasted my teenage years being a kpop fangirl, no regrets tho, and been a fan since 2010. The core reason as to why I decided to jump into the pit was because of Boys Over Flowers, yeah, still couldn’t believe I swooned over that drama and fell in love with Kim Hyun Jung (we’re divorced with talak 3 now Idk who is he anymore bahaha)
Anyways, I’ve been into EXO since early 2012 thanks to Teetee who won’t stop jamming to What Is Love. I remember we were sitting on the blue stairs at school while listening to this song (and watching our ex-crushes training on the field HAHAHA ugh NO.) So the song kinda grew in me and I decided to join the bandwagon. Of course, I needed a bias (most fav member) to stan and at the same time SM was releasing pictures of each of the members before they officially debuted later in April.
I fell in love with this boy
Such. Gorgeous. Human. Bean. *cries silently* So this is the person behind the C on my dUCk tote bag guys hehehe
Anyways, I don’t know how to express how much I love this dude, I already feel sorry for my future husband because he’s gonna be below this Kim Jongdae guy haha. To my future husband: don’t mind me if I ever go emo on every 21st September buying myself a cake and locking myself in our room (you’re prohibited to go inside) because I’d most probably be crying while singing to a birthday song with this dude’s picture on my laptop’s screen. But please still love me though hahaha
I was still 14 when I fell in love with this Jongdae dude, and now I’m 20 years old. I basically grew up with him and the other exo boys, I knew a lot of amazing friends from the same fandom across the world and I swear I made a lot of friends from kpop world on twitter more than I made in real life. Though I lost contact with some of them (deleted my old fangirl twitter account because I needed to focus on my studies *cries*) but still glad that I’m still friends with some, especially those fangirls from Brunei itself hehehe (hai Icah <3). Who needs a boyfriend when God sent you 9 of them.
Jokes I still do HA-HA.
EXO’rdium in Malaysia has got to be the highlight of my life guys. My first ever concert happened to be EXO’s, still couldn’t believe that it happened though. Seriously, it felt surreal!!! I was there, breathing the same air as them and now I’m missing them so bad. Sorry but the post-concert depression is still there, guys *grabs tissue, blows nose*
The main reason why we went to KL back in March wasn’t really for shopping, but it was actually for this concert. Honestly, it never ever crossed my mind that I’m going to legit go to their concert, fully using my own money (jic some of y’all thought that I’m a spoiled brat who gets anything and everything that she want just by snapping her fingers, girlll I wish for it. My parents didn’t even bother to give me a single penny for flight ticket, hotel or shopping money. They’d rather spend it on gas haha) that honestly satisfied me though, but I still wish I could drag Jongdae home and give my parents a son-in-law HAHAHA
18/3/2017, we woke up around 7 a.m. Me and Teetee were planning to go to the Stadium around 9 a.m but we were still drained from our intense workout the day before, so we were like “meh we’ll just go there at 12”. We had breakfast and went to nu central to buy bags for the concert, went back to the hotel to prepare our stuffs for the concert and I was already feeling all anxious ’cause reality started to kick in by that time. We bought food, packed our mists, shoved our raincoats inside our bags, checked our tickets and all.
Walked from our hotel to the Stadium and arrived about 10-15 minutes later, already sweating as the sun decided to be chirpy that afternoon…sheesh…
The first thing that I saw was booths selling endless EXO merchandises. I was planning to get a ligthstick but we decided to check on the queue first.
My. Jaw. Literally. Dropped. Guys.
People were already queueing and the queue has already reached down the hill by the time we arrived. What. On. Earth???? I wish I have pictures to show you guys but I was already all speechless couldn’t even think of snapping pictures. My brother (yeah he went to KL with us too) was like “are you kidding me???”. His face was so priceless watching fans queuing there probably labelling them “crazy”. He looked at me with the “you crazy” face too anyway, looked back at the queue and his face changed to “what the Fudge”. I didn’t even tell him that that was only one of the queues happening at the time *laughs*
So we had to take a spot there because once we’ve secured our spot, we couldn’t go anywhere. We weren’t allowed to go down to buy from the booths so I had to forget my intention to buy a lightstick. Ugh. Oh, have I told you guys the weather was scorching hot?
And we happened to forget to bring umbrella. Nice. So we just tumpang umbrellas from the girls in front of us bahaha #shameless but we couldn’t tahan so when this guy that was selling umbrellas passed by, we literally shoved our money to him and snatched the umbrella from him. PHEW #abangpayungtosavetheday
Also God bless the Do Kyungsoo (second husband ;>) banner that I decided to hoard before abang payung came by, though the fan was hesitating at first because I didn’t have enough Kyungsoo pictures in my gallery. Guuurl, he’s been wrecking my life since 2013 why are you even hesitating.
Long story short, we queued for 6 hours. Yes, you read that right. We arrived around 12p.m, we went up around 2p.m to wait for the entrances to open and went inside the venue at 6p.m. We stood under the sun, under the rain with lightnings and thunders happily witnessing our sufferings. Things we did for EXO man…and that doesn’t include the part where we literally got squeezed from every directions possible.
Honestly, the organizer was so so bad. Imagine trying to fit thousands of people into a small freaking door, AT ONCE. They literally just gathered us in a large group and when the entrances were about to open THEN they told us to make lines. Like?????? I’m not an organizer and I don’t even know how being one is like, but you could’ve told us to make lines hours before that??? Or like tell and cater us to form into lines when we arrived outside the stadium???? I mean we stood there for 4 freaking hours doing nothing (other than singing to exo’s songs because we could literally hear them rehearsing from out there) when we could’ve just form and stand in lines according to the entrances????
I was already grumpy because my shoes were damped from the rain making my feet itch like crazy, I have mild claustrophobia so I had to look up to take some fresh air while telling myself that I’m not gonna get pushed down and got stump on and die before even getting to meet EXO. Everyone was angry so the vibe was so negative.
What pissed me off even more was this one annoying guard. We were already in front of the entrance for freaking hours, guys, and he told us to move back because we potong queue. Literally big “?????” were floating on top of us. One of the fans there tried to convince the guard that we’ve been queuing there for so long, but he won’t buy it. He even said that he won’t let us enter the venue if we didn’t listen to him. Like, HELLO, you did not pay for our tickets human! Honestly, I did not pay BND226 for such treatment, SM, please choose your organizer wisely next time. I give F- for the organizer, very ironic.
*inhale, exhales* I’m fine guys, I’m fine *exhales* ok back to my story I promise it’ll get better hahaha
Fans literally came from around Asia guys, I’ve never heard so many languages at once until that day hahaha. In front of me were a group of Indonesian fans shouting “sumpah aku” at everyone, on my left were Indian fans being all patient, I heard someone talking in Thai from the back probably cursing too haha, on my right was a bunch of chinese fans. And oh, korean fans were also there, guys. I guess watching EXO in your own country wasn’t enough haha. I saw a korean Chen stan with her cute Chen doll and banner…and Gucci sneakers that got soaked with rain. *CLENCHES HEART* *CRIES BLOOD* Teetee just rolled her eyes at my mini drama moment and told me to calm down because the korean girl probably have thousands of Gucci sneakers in her wardrobe. But my heart’s still hurting for the sneaker up until now, I hope it’s still alive.
Tired, drained, angry and scared but we finally managed to go inside the stadium. At 6p.m KL was still bright, fans were already sitting on the benches and have also filled the rock zone (standing area). Me and Teetee were lucky enough to get a spot literally in front of the connecting stage while most of other fans were squeezing themselves at the right side where the main stage located. We couldn’t be bothered to go there ’cause just by looking at those people squeezing already made me suffocated lol. Teetee told me that they’d sometimes go to the connecting stage anyways so I was praying for my luck that my husbands will always go to that side. Like, HELLO HUSBANDS, your tiny wife’s on the left bahaha. The huge screen was literally in front of us anyway so we’re cool hehe
They played EXO’s songs and commercials while waiting for 8p.m. We all went nuts when they played the Lotte Pepero commercial by EXO (I KID YOU NOT IT WAS SO CUTE here you HAVE to watch it), no matter how many times they replayed it haha. Also this particularly random moment when the fans from the left sitting side shouted and pointed at the backstage because I think they saw some of the members, but I wasn’t really sure if it were really them or just the crews lol. So me and Teetee just looked at each other and shrugged while chilling to save our energy.
When it was about 7:50p.m, I was already panicking. My heart raced so fast and I had this urge to punch myself on the face just to make sure that everything wasn’t a mere dream. The sky was getting dark and people started to turn on their light sticks forming into silver ocean. I. Still. Can. Not. Believe. That. I. Was. Part. Of. The. Silver. Ocean. #EMO
They started to play the VCR and soon very familiar sound that is so close to my heart could be heard. Everyone screamed, I screamed, it was wild.
I CHOKED ON MY OWN MUCUS.
I KID YOU NOT GUYS I BAWLED. I SOBBED I CRIED I SCREAMED BECAUSE THERE THEY ARE.
Teetee literally looked at me with the “WTF” and “omg chill woman” face but I ignored her and continued crying while telling her to pinch me. She obliged and if she could punch me, she would honestly throw me one guys hahaha #dramaqueen. But seriously, guys, you feel me? They’ve been in my heart since the beginning and I finally got to meet them this year. They’ve brought so much happiness to me during my loser teen years, where nobody wants to date me (and still don’t wanna date me up until now lol) they are there to fill the empty hollow in me. They made me laugh, cry, confused, mad, basically what your boyfriend/girlfriend did to you hehe.
I calmed down halfway of the song and partied along with them. I forgot that I was mad, tired and hungry, I totally forgot about everything. I sang along, laughed along even jumped along to their performances.
IT. WAS. LIT.
But you know what Teetee was doing? Standing with her arms folded on the rail and watching the big screen. That woman doesn’t have any feeling, guys. She eye-sided me when I told her to have fun and jump along, jumped for 5 seconds and went back to her own comfort bubble, s-m-h.
The boys started to roam around the connecting stage and I think Jongin was the first one to come to our side..or was it Junmyeon..but they all went to our side anyway so I witnessed their beauty first hand. I swear they were sculptured carefully by God, I’ve never seen such flawless human beings. I feel ashamed as a girl.
Pictures doesn’t do them any justice.
We all went nuts when they danced along to Artificial Love. The choreography was so haram so I didn’t blink HAHAHAHAHA (((Jongdae’s butt though, I’d totally tap that to mars))). I remember Junmyeon was performing in front of us and ugh. It’s too haram for this blog haha (no they did not stripped naked, as much as I wish they would so no worries haaa)
You know when was the only time Teetee reacted? When Chanyeol was around our side. But this Chanyeol kid was too lazy to go to the end of the stage where we were standing so she got frustrated at him and went all like “Chanyeol who??? I stan Baekhyun”. Baekhyun was beautiful, guys, he’d make you want to cover your face with a grocery bag when you see him in real life. I literally froze witnessing his beauty. You guys be like “oh plastic surgery” lol no just take care of your skin, his skin was glowing brighter than the stadium’s spotlights combined.
I tried to take pictures using my camera but I had to be careful because we weren’t allowed to bring cameras apparently, which reminds me that I finally witnessed how fansite noonas work in front of my eyes. They had small folded chairs, backpacks with cameras and guns (lenses lol) inside. I have no idea how they didn’t get caught with cameras as huge as those and the guards were roaming in the area too even I almost get caught by one of them. But hey, thanks to them we all have these glorious HD pictures of our biases in our phones hehehe
Anyway, my husbands knew I was on the left side and it was their favorite side of all hehe #jokes. Jongdae went to our side 4 times and stood in front of me 3 times *CRIES BLOOD*
Just look at that small human bean aka the owner of the huge part of my heart *clenches chest*
I of course went nuts, duh, screaming “CHEN!!! KIM JONGDAE!!” and also, Teetee’s favorite “BABY!!!!” she kept on teasing me since that, the person who went all “PARK CHANYEOL!!! PARK CHANYEOL!! CHANYEOL AAAAAGGGGHBKDJNWJNDJKWNKNDJNWJQKLQS” when Chanyeol finally stood gloriously in front of her. I wish my phone doesn’t ran out of storage or I probably would have the receipt by now (and show it on your wedding day teehee). Be glad God loves you Teet bahahahaha
It was an honor to listen to his voice live, guys, his high notes were utterly perfect, his voice was as sweet as honey, he could serenade me to sleep. His dancing skill has improved and I am so so sooo proud of him. I remember him being the most underrated member of all 12 of them but he kept on moving forward to be better and better. Now you’ve an army of your own fans, baby, I’m proud to be by your side since the beginning <3 I’m loving the right person guys ahh <3 <3 <3
*coughs* Y’all can puke now, but anyway
Kyungsoo went to our side 3 times and I swear this dude has the best body ever. I would want my future husband to have a body like him…or….he can be my future husband too why not hahaha JOKES #Idontwannadieyoung. He was so adorable guys. Remember the banner that I (forcefully) got from this fan?
I raised it up whenever he was in front of me, and that one time when he saw the banner and suddenly went all shy and looked away while smiling. I swear I’m not lying guys (just perasan *blows nails*) HE WAS SO CUTE. I had a vision of losing my nuts and climbing the stage, shove him inside my bag and bring him back to Brunei. But your girl still have a reputation ok and she kept on chanting “stay classy stay classy stay SANE” under her breath. Do Kyungsoo is still safe, for now.
We were also given this banner for Minseok’s birthday and also were told to download his picture on our phones. When Minseok was done changing his outfit and went back to the stage with the other members, we started to sing a birthday song while holding up the banner and our phones. The birthday project was a success because we could see that Minseok was touched and was at the verge to cry (babyyyy ;____;)
We also sang lose control (I think) for Yixing when we were waiting for the encore to start as he couldn’t make it to the concert, so that he would know that even though he wasn’t there, he is always present in our hearts hehe <3 OT9 forever (though I’m still a delusional loser who’s stuck in OT12 era)
I honestly don’t know how to describe the concert here, it was amazing, lit, awesome, wonderful, unbelievable I don’t know. But all I know is that it was worth everything, worth BND226 for the ticket, worth getting squeezed, getting all pissed, worth flying to KL just for this. It was the best night of my life.
During the encore they were bunch of children running around, having fun, waving and saying thank you to us fans for being wild that night haha. Again Jongdae went to our side and waved, I swear his eyes were full of love and appreciation guys. He scanned the crowd and I was waving at him when we made an eye-contact for 3 seconds.
I’m sorry guys but I’m finally taken.
We’re official. *blows nails*
Another cute thing was when Kyungsoo suddenly ran to our side tailed by the beagles, it was raining so they were all wet and they were playing with their drinks. The 3 devils literally poured their drinks on Kyungsoo’s head and now the view is part of my core memories because it happened literally in front of my eyes. Best. Night. Ever.
Oh, have I told you guys that we were showered with Chanyeol’s drink? HEHEHE. You can hug me anytime ’cause I’ve a piece of PCY under my skin *eye sides Teetee*
Finally, it was over. Sehun was the last one to exit the stage and we could tell that that cutie doesn’t want it to end either. I feel you, Sehun, I feel you. I whined to Teetee and she just nodded and said “same woman, same”. It was almost midnight by that time and Teetee’s dad was already waiting for us outside the stadium. He said he could hear us screaming and all and chopped us insane bahaha. We went to 7 eleven and only during that time that I realize we haven’t had any lunch or dinner and I was hungry as heck. My cheap RM6 bag gave up on me, my world map dUCk was wet, I basically looked horrifying. Thank God my mascara was waterproof haha.
We dragged our bum to our hotel as we need to rest for our early flight the next day. I had the best sleep ever though I had to wake up around 4a.m to pack. 6a.m we checked out and arrived at KLIA2 (Airasia’s own airport and it was coolest airport ever!!!) around 7 almost 8. The next thing that I remember was us sitting at Baskin Robbins indulging on our green tea + cotton candy and peanut butter + mint chocolate chip ice-creams while discussing our next EXO concert #LOSERS
Thank you for dragging my loser bum to EXO’s concert Teetee, you made our teenage wish came true <3 <3 <3 Now I want to thank God for the existence of EXO in this world and in my heart.
But before that, Teet, next concert in Singapore or Seoul next year? HEHEHEHE.