I went hiking guys.
Okay 5 minutes for you guys to laugh and snort at me PFFTT.
I swear the last time I went hiking was when I was still in primary school (when hiking was a cool family thing, I’m glad that it’s not anymore…) so when Poopy Cat told me that she’s gonna bring me to hike at Tasek Lama, I just laughed. Maybe this girl is joking you know how princess I am. Cannot be too long under the sun (I have eczema), cannot get dehydrated for too long because I’m a mermaid duh and did you just say legit hiking in the jungle where all types of wild insects are residing??? Pfftt she’s definitely joking!!!
She wasn’t, guys. This was me sliding down the rocks ’cause my shoes were too slippery…okay FINE another 1 minute for you all to laugh over my misery sheesssshhhh.
Okay 1 minute is over guys. Time to move on.
Anyhooo, I went to Poopy’s house as early as 6:40a.m and she drove me to Tasek Lama for the hike. See, Poopy’s already familiar with the place, I mean duhh she’s really fit and sporty, which is the total contrast of me. She told me that we’re going to go to the 30 minutes route so I was like oh okay 30 minutes only pfftt not that long and should be easy, even my grandma can probs do it.
We arrived 45 minutes after with me all sweaty and palms dirty with soils.
I was judging Poopy so hard ’cause she was walking casually as if she was walking around the mall guys, while I was desperately holding onto the ropes and the roots and the branches and the trees the leaves, also holding onto my dear life! She dared to hike while editing pictures for her instagram, leaving me literally climbing behind her. The audacity. The ground was slippery too because it was raining before that…I get it you pro hahahaha. *cries soils*
Poopy when she told me that we’re almost there, when we were actually just halfway thru -___-
“we’re almost there! I can see it” LIES.
Okay nice view, you’re forgiven.
I WE MADE IT ALIVE!!! Also never knew that this tower exist, if only we can climb it too haha.
I was panting so hard, guys. My legs were wobbly, my heart was racing and my hands were shaking. Poopy, again, just casually sitting down as if the route wasn’t challenging enough for her. I mean hello??? Not trying to be dramatic but I COULD’VE DIED THERE.
I sat beside Poopy when she told me that there’s a short 10 minutes walk to this place with a beautiful scenery. Hmm 10 minutes should be fine I think, that doesn’t sound so bad…maybe the route won’t be as challenging as before…
Took me good 20 minutes I think…hahaha.
Again, beautiful scenery. Poopy’s forgiven once again.
We sat on one of the huge rocks in silence and just enjoying the view while the cold wind was blowing softly up there. It was sooo tranquil and quite guys, just the sound of the bugs buzzing here and there could be heard, which I was surprisingly keen of. We could see some buildings from there and it amazed me how high the hill actually is. Huge buildings were only the size of my thumb from above there! I took a deep breath and sighed in content, forgetting my wobbly legs, dirty hands and the additional butt sore. The climb was worth it.
To think about me struggling so hard to reach the top (Poopy obviously doesn’t included because she’s a pro pfftt), made me think of real life struggles. Trying to reach the top was not an easy task to do. There were several obstacles where I had to think before making my next move, there were divided path where I had to make a choice, prioritizing the best path that won’t lead me to fall flat on my face. There were few stumbling and slipping on the slippery ground, needing help from the ropes to hold onto my dear life. There were also sacrifice made, where I had to let myself all dirty just to make it to the end, though I sound so dramatic here. But in the end, it was really worth it, being able to witness all the greeneries, the birds flying free and just adore Allah swt’s creation up there, subhanAllah <3
To me the climb was like life. Obviously the path was full of obstacles, so does life. No matter how much we tried to avoid it, it is inevitable. All we have left is to go through it and move on to the next obstacle, probably a bigger one also. We also have to make choices in life, and we have to think of the best choice for us to achieve our dreams. Choosing also means risking, we won’t know if the choice will successfully bring us pass through the obstacle we’re facing. But we gotta try it anyway because we won’t progress if we’re scared. But then again, even our choice can betray us sometimes, making us stumble and slip. Again, that’s life. We’re still human beings and we’re bound to make mistake so we can learn from it. Nobody’s perfect to begin with. But never forget to get up and come back stronger after that, as mistake was also made to toughen us up. The ropes were our family and friends, don’t be too ego, it is okay to seek help from them too.
The journey may seem endless, but we never know what’s waiting for us up there. We get tired and we started to whine, but at the same time we told ourselves that this journey is made for us, so just keep on walking. We’ll go through this and we’ll get there…so much of 30 minutes walk…hahaha jokesss. Metaphorically, I’m obviously still climbing my own dream success hill currently. I might still be at the bottom all I know, or at the middle already only God knows. But thinking of how beautiful the top view was motivated me to climb positively, knowing that Allah swt is watching all of our efforts and reward it accordingly. It is a really great motivation to me now.
I’ve been feeling so worthless, useless and stupid these past few days. It was my fault too for listening to people for too much. But at the same time I can’t help but to feel belittled after being compared by my own family member. I feel like I wasn’t good enough, them thinking me achieving things that meant a lot to me but are apparently nothing to them hurts me so much. I’m not seeking for any praises or anything, I just want a support system because I know that I can never handle this alone. But no, they think that my HND level is NOTHING. If only they knew that HND is just the same, legit the same as double degree. Heck, we even advanced studying modules from double degree year 3, 4 and 5, and I already secured myself some A- even before doing degree for the modules. But as if people care right haha. I only got compared to “anak si anu yang pandai buat degree di luar” instead. Dismissed. You’re irrelevant to them Miza. And they dared to ask why I always preferred to chill with my friends instead *laughs*
Anyway, though they have big mouths I still cannot do anything lol. I still have to respect them, but I hope I’ll be given the patience to endure this kind of people. They are like one of the obstacles that I faced while hiking and I know exactly that I’ll pass through them and will prove them wrong. I know I wasn’t supposed to expose my personal problems here I’m so sorry guys, but I just want to tell you guys to not be like me. Whoever it is, whether it’s your family member or a complete stranger, never let their words condemn you and bring you down. You do you, believe in yourself and be firm and strong, not everyone is going to support and love you. Have faith in God and focus on those people that truly love and support you, because they are the ropes that are going to bring you to the top with them.
And one of the ropes has got to be Poopy Cat haha. Thank you so much for dragging my lazy a** to hike on an early Sunday morning Poop. Not only I feel a bit fit now but I also received a life lesson from the experience too hehe. But please don’t drag me again anytime soon okay, next year should be fine hahaha. I’d rather walk in a pair of 6 inch pumps while shopping :>
Haters (and my fats) this way please. Teeheeee~