Guys I attended UNISSA’s convocation for the second time this morning and I swear I’ve never felt so genuinely excited and happy before. Okay, except during Exo’rdium…or when I got accepted to study in my current uni…but really, it was the best Monday morning ever!!!
I honestly don’t know where to start, how to express this feeling to you guys except for repeating how ecstatic I feel from this morning and up until now. UGH I JUST CAN’T WAIT TO GRADUATE GUYS!!! CAN TIME MOVE FASTER?? CAN WE SKIP ALL OF THIS AND JUST GO STRAIGHT TO MY GRADUATION DAY???
I’m gonna graduate next year insyaAllah and by watching our seniors up there receiving the certificates that they deserve, given by our own beloved King makes me all giddy. I almost cried, guys, and it wasn’t even my graduation yet! Thinking of all the hard works and obstacles that they went through and imagining the feeling of holding a piece of paper that tied up years and years worth of blood and sweat made me proud of each of them, though I don’t even know them personally.
My journey only started last year, though it’s crazy how time flies that now I’m in my second and final year of HND. Was my first year easy? Heck no. As someone who has a science background instead of law, I was struggling so hard in trying to fit in and get myself used to the changed field. But it was my own choice and passion was the one that pushed me through. Alhamdulillah so far my results are outstanding, beyond what I’ve targeted as someone who is still new to law. Life is crazy, guys.
Let me tell you guys this, I never told anyone this before but my initial plan was to pursue engineering. That was during my O’level time though, when everyone was pressured to set their future straight. So I took Maths, Physics and Business Studies for my A’level. I planned on nailing my A’level and get myself a scholarship, fly away from Brunei to wherever uni that’d accept me in the UK. But that didn’t happen, I was struggling so bad. Again my interest changed, I kinda liked business after that. Maybe business is for me as I kept on failing maths and physics no matter how hard I studied. Business was the only subject that kept me afloat, though I slept and skipped almost all classes (SORRY SIR) but I passed anyway. So I was thinking, hmm maybe business is for me. Okay fine, pursuing business in UBD would do then. I guess my rizq is not outside Brunei.
The insane thing is, here I am. In UNISSA, doing LAW. I hated law, guys. I hated history, I judged Teet for taking history for her A’level. I made faces whenever she told me that they had to make essays, memorizing important dates and events. I always thought that law people are lunatic. But little did I know that I’m actually one of the lunatics bahaha #inmyface
I didn’t get any award for being the best student, my tariff point was only 160 points. I couldn’t even sign up for degree at that time. I was a huge disappointment to everyone in my life. I was depressed, but at the same time strong willed to try taking A’level again whatever it is to get my dumb a** a seat to pursue law. It was a rocky journey. But look guys, here I am. Not doing degree but HND instead, but honestly just like what my friend has said it is just double degree in HND disguise pfffft.
I didn’t get to go to a well known university in the UK or AU, but here I am going to a very humble uni (I mean really humble. Our uni used to be an old UBD, which my mom used to attend and also nursing school haha). But in this little campus I am blessed with abundant amount of knowledge that can benefit me both here in Dunya and Akhirah, insyaAllah. Allah swt also blessed me with an amazing law fam, that surprisingly were as lost as me, yet here we are walking on the same journey to become law enforcers together. Despite me being all insecure about my current level, I finally realized how Allah swt is actually blessing me in His own way. I’m going to graduate, twice (or more hehe) from this uni. I’m going to wear that green robe with gold, legit gold songket weave, twice. I’m going to go up on the stage, getting the folder of my hard work given by none other than His Majesty, twice. I’d get to make my family proud of me, twice.
I can’t wait to make my family proud again, I’ve been a disappointment ever since I was a teenager to them. When was the last time I made them proud, I can’t even remember. Looking at the proud parents this morning makes me all enthusiastic to pursue my passion even more, because really, nothing can ever compare to their happiness, moreover if the reason behind it is you. I even saw grandparents attending the convocation, despite having backache and leg pain. The grandma behind me was leaning on her grandchild’s arm while hugging him tight, looking at the camera with contented smile plastered on her face. After that she proudly patted him while muttering “tahniah” and guys, it was the most heartwarming scene I’ve ever witnessed. I seriously can’t wait for my turn.
The truth is, I never seen myself getting all obsessed with law. I didn’t notice that I was actually craving for knowledge up until now. UNISSA was never part of my plan. It’s CRAZY I tell you. But this is what has been predetermined by God for thousands of years already. This is the best path for me, this is my blessing from Him and I will never take it for granted anymore. Obviously my journey’s still long, I might be done with degree when I’m 24 years old while you guys might probably be having your first child already haha. But sometimes it’s okay to stop and count your blessings, you’ll see how much things you’ve taken for granted. Never forget to thank Allah for everything and everything in this life.
Just because you fail, doesn’t mean you’re not going to succeed. Success doesn’t come just like that darling, you have to work harder. In fact, failing before success is actually a hidden form of blessing. Coming from someone who’ve failed multiple types of exams, believe me it’ll make you a stronger and a grateful person. I’m still a no one to advice you all but seriously, if I weren’t to fail jatuh tergolek terkangkang, I’d probably be living a mediocre life being all smug looking down at y’all. All of the struggles had opened my eyes to see that everyone’s going through hardships too, so always stay humble, always keep your feet attached t0 the ground. The harder you work, the more effort seen by Allah swt, the wider the door of success will be opened for you insyaAllah. So please pray for my success guys, I’ll always pray for yours kay hehe. May Allah bless us with knowledge that will benefit us both in Dunya and Akhirah <3
Also my favorite thing was family and friends giving flowers and balloons to the graduates omg!!! I was all chirpy looking at balloons here and there guys! I mean yeah you guys don’t have to give me balloons next year though, just give me air balloon would be enough hehe. Oh, make sure that my flower is orchid okay. Huge moth orchid, preferably in white and purple. Maybe a Gucci Dionysus too, THAANKS <3