Hahahaha I know I was gone for too long….I swear I have valid reasons kay!
1. Because I had my internship and I thought I would have some spare time but y’all omg I had to work until 12 a.m! (even until 3a.m and 6a.m sometimes! Crazy) Although I did get a full day break the next day every time I had over time but I would usually conked out until 12p.m and went back to sleep after I prayed ehe. Also had to deal with some stress because had to do my work with people I didn’t and just couldn’t vibe with. I swear guys, I tried. I really tried.
2. I had to do my internship report right after we were done with the internship, and I only had 7 days to finish that. Also had to deal with some stress because my logbook was still at my internship’s place while my uni was pushing me and my friends to get it done and hand it in to them ASAP. Talking about mission impossible lol. I got so stressed out that I skipped my period for a month -__-
3. I am officially DONE with my HND and is now on my way to become a degree student. Emphasizing on on my way because…I’m not officially one of it yet lol. I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it here before but my course HND Islamic Criminal Justice System is a new course actually and I was in the first batch. Soooo…I was a lab rat once again guys bahaha. Honestly I still am because they’ve yet to figure out our structure as most of us are going straight to second year. I’ve yet to pay for my course too and yet we’re still attending classes and is already having our mid semester break….so Idk…please pray for me and my friends huhu.
4. I AM GRADUATING. TOMORROW!!!! Honestly why I decided to blog because I am having some mixed emotions right now. I am scared, I am excited, I am happy, I am sad, I am feeling EVERYTHING right now. It is crazy because it felt like it wasn’t that long ago I was blogging about getting accepted into my current uni??? Wow.
This is crazy wait I need a moment.
I am scared because I’m going to get my certificate directly from His Majesty.
HIS MAJESTY, GUYS.
Oh God is this really happening????? I need to calm down!!!!
We did practiced for two days though and honestly the steps aren’t that hard to follow. BUT once you get up there on the stage, swear your brain is the biggest traitor at that time. Although it was one of the lecturers who was pretending to be HM but y’all my palms were sweaty, my legs were shaking like jello and I forgot some steps too. My brain? Lmao it ran away hiding behind the stage somewhere hyperventilating, don’t mind it, that useless thing. There were so many possibilities of me screwing myself in front of HM playing in my head right now. Like what if I forgot to bow? What if I fall flat on my face? Oh God what if the sole of my shoes come off on the stage??? Would I be trending as ‘the girl that accidentally threw her certificate in front of the King’ worldwide? (If so, I’m ready to do some paid review and sponsorship. KIDDINGGG). GAAAHH so many bad scenarios in my head right now. Please pray for me, guys.
But wow isn’t this crazy? I know it is still HND and most of you guys already graduated from degree but heck, this is a huge thing for me. I finally found my passion and is no longer hesitating of the area that I want to pursue in. This is for my 17 years old self who was aware of what she wanted, for my 18 years old self who was brave enough to change her course and decided to go for law, God I still remember attending night classes cramping 2 years worth of studies into 6 months time with my mom having to drive me so far every twice per week. For my 19 years old self who was scared because she thought she was failing, but here we are guys, 21 years old with a valid HND Islamic and Civil criminal law certificate. One of maybe 2 (ehe) courses done, it’s gonna be a tougher and longgg journey this one.
Tweeted this almost 3 years ago, little did she know she’s gonna rock one tomorrow.